my writing demons

I love writing. For me, writing is much more than telling a story or a task we have to deal with because we're in school. To me, writing is like composing music, after every word, every idea there is more and more to write about to elaborate and to express. Depending on my current emotions, and the time of the day, my writing can be different. I like developing a style in my writing, and I also like to keep surprises in my writing. But overall, I think style and beauty is the most important thing in writing.

At the same time, I have trouble expanding ideas. Ideas come to be like ocean waves, one wave after another, just as I had one idea, the next one is already present. Sometimes I even try to control myself not to come up with so many idea, instead just focusing on one topic or idea. Another one of my writing demon is grammar use. English is a very hard language to learn, especially for someone who's native language is chinese. The thing that is almost impossible for me to acquire is the usage of verb tenses. For example: he has, she has, I have, and you have. I always gets them mixed up since there are no verb tenses in chinese. To me, English is a totally different kind of language.

Actually my writing demons are also present in my musical playing. For example: I often cut a melody into several pieces, and sometimes I catch myself making the music sound rather broken. I have trouble expanding and extending my ideas. Ideas and imaginations strike me constantly, I really need to find a way to control myself, and focus on one topic at a time.